ByGiora Carmi
It is 4 AM. My body trembles from soles to neck. All the nervous system trembles everywhere: In the heart, in the feet, in the stomach, in the neck. As if I am sitting in a truck while the strong engine is working. I had this happen before but this is stronger. I don’t know…
ByGiora Carmi
As a child in wonder With a strong trunk Connected to the ground It makes a circle And grows in all directions It is full of life Creating quite a stir Even places that were broken Grow It looks at the world As a child In wonder It takes its space With grace It dances…
ByGiora Carmi
Twice this night I came to this table, made drawings and went in with words. The nerves are now closer to the surface and burn all the time. Sometimes I can take it and sometimes I can’t. But even when I can’t, I take, because there is nothing that can be done. The salves that…
ByGiora Carmi
I am going through a strange time. On one hand the ability to feel in my feet grows more and more every day. I start having longer periods without pain. It is going to happen. I have brought my psyche to a state that allows my body to heal from Neuropathy and neuropathic pain. I…
ByGiora Carmi
I have been awake for a while. The color of the sky in the little corner of my window starts changing. I sit at the window seat and look toward the east, along the street that leads to the hospital. I see the lights of the emergency cars, big and blinding. I sense the energy…
ByGiora Carmi
Crazy times for me. Not everything is explainable, because reality falls apart. There is going up to a good mood and then an old habitual sadness/bitterness washes over me. Then again the mood turns, this time into wonder and then reality starts falling apart. That’s where I am, folks. Drawing one: The bird Was…
ByGiora Carmi
Like calligraphy As if it is a piece of writing About something intense That faded out About pain that is now breaking apart About new growth That had a hard time growing Because of the weight it carried About an old support That is now Only a shadow of itself About interactions That seem to…
ByGiora Carmi
Still waking up at night. At 2:30 AM I go to my studio. It still bothers me that I have pain, though it bothers much less than it did before. I know my question to Int.: What do I need to know? Here is the drawing. And the text: My pain is what remains after…
ByGiora Carmi
I learn from different people how to manifest. In order to manifest what you choose to manifest you need to have a good feeling associated with what you want, and you have to believe that it will happen and expect it. And more: you need to clear your subconscious from all the ideas that oppose…
ByGiora Carmi
The night before this one, when the pain came, I released the fear, the tensions in the body resulting from the pain and the expectations that it will come again, I released sadness and the madness that drives this pain, that something that motivates it to come. When I did all these, which took some…
ByGiora Carmi
It is around 4AM. The pain does not let me sleep. I am exhausted. My eyes itch. If I sit and meditate, my head falls and I fall asleep sitting, but I wake up because I am about to fall from bed. When I lie down the pain increases and I can’t sleep. I come…
ByGiora Carmi
As you know, I draw without knowing what I do. I just listen to impulses and hints. I see a color in my imagination; I take it. I look at the watercolor box and my eyes fall on blue; I start with blue. The lines decide where they want to go. And sometimes when I…