And suddenly it was finished. I was still trying to see more colors in the two upper leaves on the right side, as the knowing that the painting was finished started to occupy some space in my being. This also … Read More
We brought our precious girl home with us again and put her in a box with a couple of her blankets and some toys until the next day when Tim made her a lovely wooden coffin and dug a grave … Read More
The lines say don’t Please do not come here We will fight against you The wine says full Says wet Says heavy The green says upward Home and trees The white says open Free and fly All things are watching … Read More
Over the last couple of months, I had noticed that Kali seemed to suddenly appear much older. Last summer she’d had a burst of new energy and had regularly gone out hunting on the land around our house. She was … Read More
As it happened to me many times before, I was planning to paint big parts of the picture and use a few different colors to help identify different entities or things that happen in the picture.Still with the same intention, … Read More
I chatted with Kali about how I was feeling, asking her forgiveness for the times when I was sad and worried about losing her. Doing this helped me to realise that feeling upset was only serving to rob me of … Read More
It is hard to not be able to sleep because of constant pain. It is even harder when the pain keeps coming in waves. You may wonder what is it. It is possible to see it as strong movements of … Read More
Kali loved to spend time outdoors, either exploring or sitting in the sunshine and enjoying its warmth. During the winter she didn’t go out as much, as she hated the cold, and instead enjoyed the odd game of chase to … Read More
Dearest Clare Who Doubts, I know, with all my heart, how very hard this is right now; how tempted you are to give up, and how loud the voices of doubt. I know how very real the imagined corpse of … Read More
I felt I needed to take some distance from the blog and from continuously describing my experiences, so that I could walk my path for a while without the notion of communicating what I go through.I see now that it … Read More
