Most people think of me as a very calm and contained person. Outwardly, I suppose I am. Inwardly, however, I am a whirl of chaos, currently ruled by impatience. I am impatient with my children when they get under my feet. I am impatient with my husband when he won’t do the jobs I request around the home. I am impatient with myself most of all. Sometimes it turns sour, and I have to rein myself in, other times I simply laugh at myself for letting silly things upset me.
At the moment, I am mostly impatient with the very slow development of my career. Once I decided to be a professional writer, I set about applying for paid writing jobs in all sorts of places. I managed to get one or two very low paid jobs, and eventually I quit those because there were not worth my time or effort. I am trying very hard to sell my books, but I fear my efforts will not succeed until I can afford to pay someone to do the job for me. So I am looking for another regular job just to earn a bit of money. Unfortunately, this is not so easy when I have to source childcare and travel arrangements on a zero budget. I am living the catch-22 situation that so many fellow mothers in the UK are dealing with (and a small number of fathers). I can’t speak for other countries, but I would be interested to hear your feedback…
Being impatient is just one more of those crazy, irrational emotions that I live with at the moment. There are a lot of things happening around me that I feel helpless to remedy, even though in many cases I can see a reasonable solution. My work attempts are waning now as I take a step back to reassess the situation and decide where my priorities ultimately lie. I mean, my children are my priority at the moment, that is true, but so are my books. They are a part of me, just as much as my offspring. And I am impatient because I need the world to read my stories, fall in love with my characters, and support me as I continue to write and publish more wonderful works. Now, hurry up, I have work to do!
Could I tempt you to read my new short story, The Wolf and the Fairy, available to download now? Thank you!
Catherine is the author of the adult paranormal romance series The Redcliffe Novels and also The Darkness of Love, She has short stories published in YA anthologies, freelance articles on various industry websites, and contributes to her personal blog, and her author blog .