If I had wanted to draw attention to myself, I have certainly discovered the way!
Especially as we woke to another wild wet day and therefore the people on the ferry were the first to look aghast, or interested and curious as I padded happily across the wet car deck – it wasn’t cold at all…
And then again in the airport, the looks ranged from taking note, to smiley fun connection, to surprise, to ‘bravo’ to shock…
It is no wonder my feet have become stars in themselves; entities with characters all of their own, who love to be seen and show off to the camera, every time it points their way!
The funny thing is, throughout my life, if anything, I have shied away from the beam this energy of mine shines to herald my presence…
This may not be very evident to those who know me, and the unstoppable life force that flows from me and has often got me the attention I claim not to want!?
But paradoxically my feet shedding their ‘clothes’ has forced me into my own limelight – where I too am standing exposed and naked – and asked that I stay where they are stepping; that I follow and simply travel the path I am making as I run wherever it leads me…
Because I don’t truly have a plan; although of course running all over the world in my bare feet is a sort of plan… But because I have no firm plan – then more than ever I am asked to trust my new world with no defining name to give myself…
Ha ha… except of course I am now the barefoot runner, the barefoot guru and even the barefoot beauty…!
But I do not ‘identify myself’ with any of them… And this is the freedom.
I have no definition I give myself, because in our world we often project onto one another some sort of definition, to make some sort of meaning to our world and our relationships…
But how wonderful if we stopped ‘defining’ ourselves in any way, and instead simply stayed with the expression of ourselves, our soul in motion in every moment… That we trust that the ordinary is the extraordinary now and now and now….
That we trust the magnificence of our true nature, our unique aspect of the whole, that is shining bright all the time if we would allow it… How wonderful to all allow ourselves to be in our own limelight and see what happens next…
For it is not our darkness of which we are truly afraid, we are often comfortable with the pain, the blocks, the cycles of repetitive stuff; but what if we shed all that and stood in our own transparent naked step and revealed our light to the world.
As Marianne Williamson writes…
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness
That most frightens us.
We ask ourselves
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small
Does not serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking
So that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine,
As children do.
We were born to make manifest
The glory of God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us;
It’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we’re liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.
I have been running all of my life – it feels I was born to run. In the running step I experienced freedom and my true expression. I came to see that I needed to ‘get out of the way of myself’ and let my energy flow through the running step; allow it to express itself in the dance and the motion of running.
I have also worked in the lives of others as a guide, counsellor, healer and teacher for over 40 years.
I lived as a nomad for 6 years with my husband Anadi, but my inner voice brought me back to the UK in May 2019 and I have been living and working and running in London since then….