Seventy

One day before, according to the Gregorian calendar, I am 70. A good friend asked me how does it feel, and I did not have anything special to say. It feels like something lived in this body, that is never the same body, and this body is almost transparent, it is not real. It floats…

The Family

I called it “The Family.” This is what I thought when I made it. I started with the figure in black, which is the man. Then the child in brown, leaning at the man and I felt then that I wanted to add the woman in pink. The man is frightening. He wears a gown,…

The Screeching is Terrible

The drawing was done at 10pm, the painting – in the morning after. It is like a very big puppet. The head is too big and heavy in the composition. The mechanism is old. It stood outside in the rain and plants started growing on it in some places. You can almost hear the clunking…

Excited Arising

For a few days I did not make many paintings in my daily working on myself, as I used to do. It felt that I was doing a lot with each one and needed some space between them. This is a painting I started very late at night, finished in the morning and wrote about…

Desire

I have been doing a series of drawings about desire. It just came up and I let it be. Here is one more painting about desire. But desire is becoming more and more beautiful. And here I am starting to know about the way of coming out of addictions, if this is what you want…

You Figure It Out…

Night. I draw in the darkness with one lamp over the table. I Collect words from the drawing and scramble them. There is a person there, tense all over. There is rain and blood and dirty green. I make a poem out of these, trusting the funny and loving energy of this strange universe to…

Fear All Over

It is a key drawing in the process of my relief from major programs in the subconscious. It describes fear. There is a body there and it is full of small waves of fear. The fear goes everywhere, the head, the chest, the hands, the muscular stomach and the pelvis. There are three places where,…

Two Paintings

I did so many paintings from the time I wrote about one. I’ll do a summary of two, as I look at them now. Here is a painting that I called: Birds and Water. It was done in a daydreaming state, imagining a place I’d like to experience. There are parts of birds in light…