Let Go of Fear and Fly Free…
Since returning from Lanzarote, after my magical week with my sister Rosy, I have not found a blogging moment…
My days have been spent engaged with Kathy and Haze on their retreats here in Spain, and my other clients on Skype too…
But today my day is stretching ahead with no sessions until 5 pm. Anadi is programming away indoors – he can’t see his screen outside… And I am sitting in the square in the sun.
Total bliss.
Years ago I went to Spain for a month alone, an almost silent retreat, in part due then to my extremely limited Spanish…!
I remember sitting outside in the sun, drinking a cup of café con leche one day, and experiencing a feeling of total happiness, pure joy… I wrote about it in a postcard to my friend Wendy which she still has. In it I said to her that I was living my dream life, running and writing in the sun.
Fourteen years later and I almost fully live that life, as a permanent way of life.
Sometimes it takes time to clear away anything that is in the way of us fully treading the path our inner voice leads us to, maybe obligation or fear or outdated beliefs about what we should or shouldn’t do, can get in the way…When in truth all we must do is keep trusting our inner guidance, clearing away any single feeling of tension, or grief, or sadness or frustration or fear…
Ahhh fear…
At the very core of most humans is fear, this is not surprising given we live in a body which needs to survive… But within this fear often there has come about a forgetting of our true nature.
As well as forgetting that we are all one, that we are all born of consciousness/god/love… When we remember this, it becomes far easier to let go, to trust, and to always release anything that arises from within in the way of judgement, blame, reactivity drowning out our inner silence
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For when we clear away the stress within, we will find that from the silence the path opens and reveals itself.
Today Anadi and I ran along the coastline with the sun rising, a shining ball of glorious light above the sea. We reached a beach at the end of the road, ran down to the rocks, scrambled over them to another beach. We ran along the edge of the surf and then picked our way up a rocky path…
Running in my bare feet has brought me more deeply in touch with myself at a translucent soul level, as well as grounding me on planet earth. I have a closer relationship with my feet and my body, and I notice that as my feet are strengthening, my running action of the young me is returning
I feel like I am flying on land, more free, more me…
I have been running all of my life – it feels I was born to run. In the running step I experienced freedom and my true expression. I came to see that I needed to ‘get out of the way of myself’ and let my energy flow through the running step; allow it to express itself in the dance and the motion of running. I ran for England and GB for some years. My first international was in 1979, a three mile cross country race; and I continued to run at international level until 1993. Two of my best results were first place in the Dublin City Marathon in 1985 and 7th place woman, 3rd British woman in the 1986 London Marathon in a time of 2.36.31, which gained me selection for the Commonwealth Games.
As a little girl I ran barefoot for many years, and then I put on shoes to race around the world. Fifty years later I am travelling the world as a nomad with my husband Anadi and I have taken off my shoes and I am running barefoot again….
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